Since cohabitating, I have stopped activity as a rule and my eating has regressed to an ugly frenzy. While my portion sizes have not increased, the types of foods have changed and not necessarily for the better.
I am changing up the food types this week. There has to be some changes anyway because his treatments start next week. I need to bulk him up a bit.
I saw my dermatologist last week and got new scripts for the same meds andn started a new allergy pill that seems to be working.
I am going start doing some kind of activity this week as well.
We have 2 parties on the calendar right now - one in April and one in June. We have a communion scheduled for May as well.
In spite of the cancer, we are trying to keep our schedules normal. I am still trying desparately to turn this house into a home for us. At least one that is comfrotable and all of that.
My week is already shaping up in the busiest of all ways. I have 2 lessons tomorrow. I have 2 lessons on Tuesday and the third lesson is going to be a dress rehearsal for a performance. Wed I have 2 lessons and the performance. Thursday I have 2 lessons and Friday I have one lesson. Saturday there is a gig that I may sing it - we'll see. It will depend if he remembers that conversation or not.
Trying to keep things "normal" is hard since there was not established "normalcy" in the first place. So I am going to establish some now.
First things first. I am putting a "plan" in place. This plan will not really be like last years plan. But it will include facets of that plan. The categories are:
Health - I need to see my ob/gyn - it's past due. I need to have my eyes looked at as that is coming up soon. I need to see a dentist and start getting my dental issues addressed. This weeks commitment is:
- I am going to do another internal cleanse starting tomorrow
- I will add activity 3 times a week
- and drink 48 oz of water every day.
Relationship - We still have a lot to do here. He's getting comfortable with this new life we are building but backwards slides are still occurring albeit less frequently. This week:
- I will stand up for myself more when I am right.
- I will pick my battles more intelligently
- I will make my needs known better.
Care taking - My job here is relegated purely to the home. I need to make sure that there are all the componants available by the end of the week for the start of his treatments. This week's goals:
- I need to stock up on Whole milk for bulking him up.
- We need lots of fluids in house to keep him hydrated.
- He needs to get releases from the doctor for accupuncture and massage therapy.
- Medicaid
Work/ Career Primary ( PM) - My new boss rocks. She is wonderful. I have my first one on one with her today. This week:
- I will wrsp up my ;ast inflight orders.
- Keep the project flowing
- get my act together as the POC for a new software program.
Work/ Career Secondary ( Music) - I have to seriously get my kids working towards the recital in June. I have solo's of my own in May. I have work for my man that needs to be done. This week I will:
- Practice "in my life" and "Lady Madonna"
- Work on my Haydn solos
- Keep all kids for NYSSMA focused and on the right track
- Get all post NYSSMA kids focused on the June recital.
- Research New Business opp with best friend.
Spiritual - This week
- I will schedule time for a counseling session
- Schedule a second speaker for spiritual values day
- Attend church this week.
Financial - This week I will
- Get my car registration renewed
- Get the rest of the car insurance paperwork straightened out. We just "merged" our policies.
- Pay back the benefactor who gave me that last 100 dollars that I needed.
Home/ House - This week I will
- Keep up with my chores
- Clean out file cabinet.
- Start an inventory of what needs to go to storage.
This is just a sample of what I plan to accomplsh between now and next Sunday. I will keep you posted as we move forward. I really need some semblance of normalcy as well some forward movement for us as well. I don't like to be naggy but I do need to make sure that things are happening and NOT at a glacial pace. You know how THAT thrills me.
If I start taking care of me and my needs better, he will be in a better place too. in the long run.
Life is exhausting. I need a vacation.
