An update and recap

"I need some reader assistance"

Update: I bailed on the 2 kids. They went back into the pool to be picked up by some other unsuspecting schmo on my team. But I did ask that the management team advise whoever takes these kids what the parents are like. If they never experiencec it, great, but at least they won't learn the hard way .

OH - and I got paid for the lessons too.

"A new size"

The clothes are great. And I lost 1.6 today at Weight watchers. that leaves .4 left from that weird gain. I am doing a 30 minute power walk on a video every day.

"THIS is what I am talking about"

DVD player is the new joy of my life. I now use to work out with. My entertainment center looks strangely empty now. That I Can adjust to.

Another jumps over to the dark side. Now three of us in my crew of friends not only went over the IPOD darkside, but we did it without consultation of one another which, in and of itself is odd, AND all three of us got the same exact one. and we all had the same headaches. But we see light at the end of the tunnel. I do feel that 99 cents per song is an unbelievable rip off. Even Rhapsody at 89 cents was ridiculous. That puts entire albums more than the retail cost to buy it in the store. Sorry Apple folks - Apple = Arrogance. ( not that they haven't earned it, but they really make their users lives sucky).

"A weird reality"

I had my dress rehearsal today. I felt it went well. I loved singing with the orchestra. I enjoyed being part of the "soloists". Thats kind of a cool feeling. I did also like the costume discussion amongst the three of us at the end of rehearsal. We are all wearing all black. yay. I hate Black and White.

"Pre-performance Stress"

Well I know I am going through a portion of that now. I am also frustrated at the being criticized for everything - both right AND wrong.

Seriously I don't think that has as much to do with my music career as my day job. My boss in my job is highly critical and doesn't even know HOW to do what I do each day. He got himself in a world of trouble with my team on Friday and spent the day calling around to us to make sure we weren't mad at him.

So any criticism after the week that I have been through is too much. It's me mostly - not them. I am pretty good at taking constructive criticism - just not this week. I need to get some things wrapped up and then I will bounce back.

I have times where I just got frustrated and disgusted with everyone and everything. It's not personal, I can't tell you what one thing is driving the mood, it just is. When that happens, the best thing for me is to stay home and not socialize. Or socialize with very few people.

Today is one of those days.

Can you tell???

I'll bounce back tomorrow.