Jealousy

I am not a jealous person.

Not unless I am given a reason to be. I am, however, suspicious when things don't add up and will investigate until get to the bottom of it.

So what looks like jealousy on me, is in fact, really just my investigating a situation that doesn't ring true.

Now. Having said that.

There is an old line that has many variations but goes something like this "Reformed Playboys make the best husbands". I have seen first hand that when a man who is a dawg in a previous life or a playboy and he meets the woman he falls in love with, he reforms and shapes up. They never really lose the dawg mentality but that's OK because it makes them charming and funny. And insiteful to single girls and guys who are navigating the dating life,

I once worked with a woman whose husband asked her out for years. she refused to date him because he dated the "wrong" kind of girl. She finally got worn out from saying no and ended up marrying the guy and had 6 kids. They are still married and happier than ever. I have another woman in my church who is like a grandmother to me. She got married at 18. Her husband started asking her out when she was 11 years old. she gave him a new excuse every single week, and every week he came back and asked again. Finally she said yes, but she needed to bring her brothers with her as she was responsible for them. He said that was fine. So they started dating and are in their late 70's.

Now, please couple this with my "2+2 does not equal 5" mentality. This problem with me lies in every aspect of my life, health, work, diet, romance, friendship, family - everything. So lying clearly doesn't fly - I always figure it out. remember 2+2 <> 5.

So. I take a call from a friend on Friday. He mentions that he wants to get together this week. I suggested that night after work for him. He says he has "plans". My brain immediately perks up. We are now at phase one : 2+2.

Being direct I asked

"Oh?" and the response I recieved was
"Yes" So I said
"Your sure you wouldn't rather come here?" and the response to that was
"No I made a promise to someone"

Huh.

I should have known. I know this schedule better than most,

Mental headslap.

"Where are you going" I finally ask

All this got me was laughter.

"Going to Hewlette to see Kat, she needs support in her new job." He said

2+2

"Our Kat?" I ask
"yup"

huh.

"Well have fun and lay down an extra big tip from me - I"ll reimburse you later" I said
"Do you want to come with?" I am asked
"I have to sing a funeral in the morning, so no, but thanks for asking" I say.

=4.

2+2=4.

somtimes I am my own worst enemy. Instead of waiting for the problem to arise, then finding a solution.... I expect the problem to be there up front and THEN try and solve it - before there is one!

I wasn't jealous, and I couldn't really care less what the plans were. I objected to being played with at that moment. Especially when this tendancy in me is well known.

the parting commentary.....

"the Jealousy was cute by the way"



This equation never works in my favor!