The Plan: Month 4

As I close out Month 4, I want to give a couple of people some special thanks:

Lisa, Post-Doc, Titles, Berni e , Maplemama, and Am. You guys were really supportive and great when I was hitting the wall on my medical tests.

Now that we are passed that...

Scenario 1 - Health

• Exercise: I am kicking some serious ass here. I am doing Pilates 3 times a week and getting much better at it. I can do most of the exercizes better now than when I started 2 weeks ago and have added part of a really hard one. I have added 10 minutes of serious ab work every day and push-ups ( modified ) until I can't do them anymore ( somewhere around 25)..... I also walk 2 miles on the off days.
• Food - Clothing fits better - I am comfortable in my eating system. Now I am trying to be healthier about it. I am adding back more fruits and veggies. Tons of water. I am really doing well here and am seeing the results at the scale.
• Journal - I am journaling every single day. Every bite of food, every bit of activity. I have added a space for my daily weight taken in the morning. My daily resting heart rate. Once my B lood presure monitor gets here I will add that too.
• Overall Health Management - I had some challenges with a positive pap on my last OB/GYN visit. I was fortunate that the second test a few days later revealed a false positive but to play it safe I am getting quarterly paps for the next 12 months. Additionally after the second pap, they took by blood pressure again which was extremely high. The week before it was extremely normal. It has me a little bit worried that it's more than just stress but I will manage it and watch it just in case though I suspect it is all stress related. I have a LOT of that right now.

Scenario 2 - Job/Career

• Project is going OK. It could be going better to be honest. but it could be going worse. I am working reallly hard to make things happen on this and slowly but surely they are making their way home. I am not bothering with leader and that crap. I just don't care. I don't have time to care. In the grand scheme it's not as important.

Scenario 3 - My home

• House is Clean. House is somewhat organized. I'm looking at organizing my hall closet this weekend.

Scenario 4 - finances

• I had a tax refund YAY.
• I had to pay something back to the IRS that came out of my refund. That's OK too.
• I have some DMV things to deal with still.
• Otherwise all is OK.

Scenario 5 - Education

• 2 of my kids came back with 27's out of 28 on their solo's. First time they went and they went on level 3 out of 6. I couldn't be prouder of them.
• I am scheduled to take the adjudication courses next year ( The sign up was over by the time I found about it...)
• Still studying voice and doing well. I'm on hiatus performance -wise for awhile.
  

Scenario 6 - Family & Friends

• Things are OK here.
• I hosted a Murder Mystery in my house - went really well.
• I attended a 70's party at a friends house - also went well - mostly.
• I am spending more time with a friend lately. Someone important to me.

Scenario 7 - Self esteem

• I had some chinese food at PF Changs the other day. One of best friend's, jenna, made me eat when I was too depressed to even think about food. I will have to say "memo to self - that was some good stuff!"
• My self Esteem took some hits this month. Not in the way that you think though. Some were really positive and amazing. Some were less so. I live my life better when I am in the middle. The peaks and valleys make me insane.
• Life lessons are taking hold, I am already caught up and behind again. It's not that I am not doing the work, I am just not writing it down. I am reading a new book that always boosts my self esteem and confidence. It's called A bombshells guide to life.
• I am spending more time telling myself that I am beautiful. I am told that by others, but I can't believe them until I believe it. So I continue to dress and do my hair and put on my lipstick, but I am attractive even if I am just lounging in my home. I just have to remember that.
• I have had someone in my life tell me that I am beautiful of late. It's meant a lot.
• I am doing my life Makeovers. This is a great help for putting my life in order.
  

Scenario - Faith

• I have been meditating lately. It's really restful and peaceful. It makes me realize I am but a small dot in the world but it also makes me realize how important I am.
• I have been praying a lot too.
• My prayers have 3 forms. One in which I as forgiveness for things that I have done or didn't do that should have been either thought through better, executed better or not at all. Some things are stupid.... others made sense at the time - you get my drift. The other form is parying for those that need prayers - I have a long list and if you need to be added or someone who does, let me know. I also add the real serious ones to the prayer list in my church. Lastly I pray for me. For the things that I want and need in my life. I have only one item in there right now.

Scenario - Inner Goddess

• Eyelash extensions which elimate the need for perming, tinting and mascara. they are an expensive application but it's a one time gig. After that it's just maintenance
• I recieved my green contacts in the mail. Can't wait to try them!
• I have scheduled my hair to be done in May. Highlighting and cut.
• I am planning on a massage and a facial for June and July.
• I am making an appointment with the dentist to make some adjustments to my teeth.
• I am making a followup appointment with the dermatologist to change up the allergy meds I am on. they are simply not addressing the allergies the way they need to. In the interim, he has me doubling up the dosage but cutting back from 3x a day to twice. I am already feeling better.
• I have a pedicure planned for May.

I think I have made some major progress this month and I owe it to a lot of unsettlement in my life. It lit a fire under me.

whatever it takes- right?