Life as I know it

I had the best week.

OK parts of it REALLY REALLY sucked.

But overall I would have to say that I had the best week.

First of all, I have not cooked in 3 days. I have been treated to homemade sausage and peppers that will literally make you moan. Turkey pot pie ( made by Jon but in the whore's kitchen) and tonight marinated skirt steak.

He has been trying to do more things in general. He went to the whore's yesterday and cooked with her and fixed her computer and dropped off the picture I framed for her. Dear lord I am nice and pretty!!!

I won't lie to you - this day did make me wildly thrilled. It did NOT make me as crazy as it once would have however. I did talk him out of ( at least for now) teaching Roman Catholic religious education for her. One - he's not RC and that tends to be viewed unfavorably by the church. Two he's an Agnostic - also unfavorable by RC administrators AND parents of RC children and lastly - he has no training to teach whatsoever. He needs to take Child abuse course mandated by the county. And lastly - his reasons for doing it really suck. He's trying to be nice and ingratiating so she can see what her choice is costing her. Payback is a bitch. But more to the point - he's going to be the one who loses in the end.

I'm not angry at him and we did have this discussion tonight while we were at the pub. THe bottom line for me is, she asked him to assist partly because he's passionate about the topic and partly because she got roped in again and is a little burnt out. It's not appropriate on a regular basis to have him teaching a faith that isn't his, that he doesn't necessarily understand and believe. She can get in trouble as well.

I am suspicious of his motivations. He is so anxious to get the friendship on the appropriate footing that he will literally do ANYTHING to get it there. Including teaching religious education in a faith he doesn't believe in. We will continue the conversation but I think he needs to evaluate what he's commiting to. I wouldn't do it and I AM catholic. Of course I am also agnostic - another reason I won't teach. I can't adequately teach a faith that I am still questioning.

That aside, and the fact that we can only do a lumpectomy on the inactive tumors on the side of his neck leaving the active tumors on his tonsils, I had a good week. He cooked for me, we went to the pub and met the new owners. We saw the old staff who were thrilled to see us. Old friends. The place looks beautiful. The owners are going to buy us a dinner in exchange for his playing one night to determine if live music will work there. ( It will).

I start pilates classes at his church ( it's a unitarian congregation actually) on MOnday and he starts meditation class at the same time. We have a Sweet 16 for my God daughter ( he's giving her one of his old basses that he refurbished for her) next Sunday and I was asked to perform at the annual Prebyterian Dinner dance that Friday. Then we have the Kiwanis Installation after that. I am really excited.

More importantly I am starting to feel like we are actually a couple. We are doing things together and starting to have that life that we wanted from the start. Slowly it's starting to fit in.

I can't change this thing about him. He's like this with all the women in his past. Honestly - the reason the whore is a problem for me is that we overlapped. And she shredded his heart even before he and I got together. I've forgiven her however I would still be a lot happier with distance. She goes through fits and spurts where she gets caught up in her life and forgets about him. This of course is hurtful, however it is what it is. He has trouble letting go of all the women in his past hence the abandonment. I get it - I don't like it much - but I get it. We work through it.

This too shall pass.

I won't let it ruin my good week!