Random musings

I have had a lot of things going on lately.





Here's the breakdown.

1. Work - My least favorite topic these days so I'm putting it here to get it done and out of the way. It's become increasingly difficult to get the job that was outlined in March done. The ruleset changes each day and it's a difficult environment to work in and I don't feel like my boss has my back. It's very frustrating to work for a client who has no regard for polite society and a complete sense of entitlement that is not earned or deserved.



2. Health (mine) - Blood pressure is playing around - can't seem to decide if it wants to be on the low side of normal or the high side of normal. Tends more to the low but my stress level is bumping it lately. Imagine that. Weight loss is going well. I have consistently maintained the 4lbs I took off last week. I am taking a pilates class one day per week and trying to walk the boardwalk more often. I am really tired lately. I'm generally trying to be healthier. Replacing some of my old products with healthier alternatives etc.



3. Health (Jon's) - So we are scheduling a lumpectomy to remove the inactive tumor in his neck. He has lost a tremendous amount of weight and we discovered he is now a 44 in jackets. He started out as a 48 and consequently A LOT of REALLY GOOD clothing is being donated to the Unitarian Church down the block. He still has active tumors on his tonsils and those need to be cleared up - right now we are taking no action and letting the radiation treatment finish it's work. There was improvement week before last though the course of treatment has been complete for some time. They will likely do another PET scan and a biopsy at the time of the lumpectomy. They cannot remove the tonsils and tumors themselves because the surgery, aside from being very disfiguring, would be highly dangerous. The surgeon thinks that there are other alternative at this time so we are reviewing those first. He's working out with weights to build up. He finally is getting side effects to the Lipitor so we curtailed the usage of that drug, though he is continuing the salt tablets. His blood came back reflecting normal sodium, high calcium and high kidney levels ( in the 3's again) which only one is good. He is tired but not in pain or discomfort. He is getting used to his new responsibilities to himself and life. Two steps foward - one step back. Just less frequently.


4. Music - I did a performance of two songs last night. I did Cole Porter's "Let's Do it, let's fall in love" and "I have dreamed" from The King and I. I LOVE the Cole Porter tune and Jon said it lays really well for me, I just need to stop "reading" it (even though I did it off book completely) and relax more. Words were a problem but not a huge one. I used mental rehearsal on how to perform this ahead of time and it worked beautifully. I envisioned how it would go, and it was almost exact. I looked nice, he looked nice. It was a fun dinner. He was happy I made him go. Other than today, I am back to my voice lessons too.


5. Finances - Wow. I can safely say that never in my life have I wanted so much and had no funds with which to do it. That's OK. It's called a budget and I am being vey prudent in this economy. We need some new appliances and that's not optional. We also want some new furniture and for that we are saving. I may well start hawking the Arbonne just for some extra cash.


6. House - Well the house is a mess. I have been working so much and doing so much that this has gone to hell in a handbasket. I am dedicating the majoity of the weekend to cleaning and organizing. Except for this blog and the nap that I have planned. I plan to cook and to clean and to generally be domestic.


7. Relationship - This is going better. Not perfect but whose is? We are working at it. It's the little things that count right now and that's what we are doing - working on the little things. It's weird because in some ways this feels like a marriage and in others not as much. More so than not, but I see a lot of things going in a positive direction. I'm almost afraid to say more lest the other shoe drops!

I think that's it overall.