Cleansing

This topic is not for the feint of heart.

I am on day 6 of a 7 day internal cleanse.

THis is not my first round with this sort of thing, but it is my first round with this particular product.

I will tell you that this one was fairly difficult on me. At least the first 3.5 days were. There was some discomfort in the first few days. I had a skin rash on my chest and was moving into the bathroom.

Once I turned the corner of day 3, I discovered that my skin had cleared up, my weight had dropped dropped, I was able to move out of the bathroom and felt amazing.


My body righted itself officially on Day 4 and has maintained through Day 6 ( today). The only thing I am feeling now is occasional gas pain but that passes naturally and with only slight quesiness.

Now I know you are all scratching your head in wonderment thinking "for all the bad synptoms this cleanse imparts WHY DO IT? "

Simple - better to have those symptoms for a few days and be productive about ridding my body of the crap ( in some folks case - literally) and replace with the good, then let it sit inside me and fester.

I have hydrated more than I ever did in my life - and again for those that know me that really is saying something because I drink so much water I should float.

Niot being a stranger to cleansing, this one was entirely botanical and all natural. It was in liquid form and I will be doing this one week a month in the future to keep myself in the "clear". I feel so much better.

THe cleanse that I started internally on the physical level I wanted to continue on the psychological and emotional levels as well. So, on "our" mutually agreed day off from one another, I went to the beach yesterday. I did not walk - I read my book and sat on a bench in the sun. I got myself a neat starter tan ( not bad for the end of the season) I felt fabulous when I got home.


From an intellectual standpoint, Jon and I have been discussing a lot of politics and religious views lately. He belongs to an Agnostic site and reads me all the posts and his responses. He is supportive of my beliefs and he wants to attend my services with me one day. We have spent enormous amounts of time on this lately - what with the presidential race going in earnest. We are at the point where we are starting to finish each others sentences and read each others minds a bit.

Last night when he arrived home, he mentioned that he ran into some of his fans from one of hte bars he played in. It has since been sold, and they have kept a lot of the original staff. He wants to go down there this coming weekend and spend some time. He wants to invite everyone who normally goes to hear him play. Then he suggested that he wanted to be magnanimous and invite the whore and her boyfriend to come too.

I was confused as to why that would be "Magnanimous". His explanation was that she is wary of him. Wary of having the two men around one another so she limits it. I think that this is odd and I comment to that effect. He then said she no longer emails or calls him, unless he initiates it.

I said "take the hint".

He didn't understand. I said that when she came to the hospital I noticed a change in her behaviour. One that makes me VERY comfortable with her now. He looked at me and said, "I knew something was too good to be true there".

I just explained that the fact is that she shut that door and moved on to the next phase of her life. It appears to be a life in which she is leaving him behind, hence her behaviour towards me in the positive.

He was quiet and then commented calmly that he is happy for her if that is what she wants. He has said time and again that he can't trust her to be anything more than a friend and not even a close one at that, but that part of him wasn't entirely ready to let go. Now it looks like he has to.

I told him that it would be a nice gesture to invite the couple to come down and spend the evening with the crowd but don't expect her to jump at the opp. He agreed and we settled out a small guest list.

The fact is he is slowly rebuilding his life. well. Our life. I am allowed to make him dinner now. We are still negotiating sleeping habits but we are having activities together that take us outside the home. We are practicing music together which is great fun for both. We are building him back up. We are prepping for surgery. We are looking to make some major purchases.

I am almost afraid to let myself feel happy. But know it's right there on the edge.....