Thankful list

Tonights thankful list is going seem odd but bear with me - there's a moral to the story. I will start with the concept of lying and truth. I was raised on the truth and how important love and trust are. Now I won't tell you I'm good at it, but I will tell you that I work at it and sometimes I am more successful than others.

We were doing the dishes the other day and talking about a friend of ours who lives out West. She and her life partner moved out there a coupld of years ago and then her partner got sick. He has never REALLY trusted her and there are just some topics that he can't handle or deal with. Like her past. Not that her past is colorful or crazy. Average. Jon said that you can't have love without trust - and I agreed with him.

Friday comes and he and I are getting our after work schedules synched up. I ask him if he's going to the bar and he says "no". He may go to his moms but that will be it. I come home from teaching and realize that I am having an allergic reaction to SOMETHING and I need benedryl.

Only problem is he has my atm card. So I call his cell - 6 times and go no answer. So I call his mom. Time is of the essence, this thing accelerates too far and it's hospital time for me. She hasn't heard from him or seen him. Hmm

So I go to the bar he SWORE he wasn't going to. Lo and behold there is his car. I walk in, angry, hurt and uncomfortable. He sees me and I tell him I need my card back as I have a medical emergency to tend to. He tells me he bought a dishrack. I look at him like he's nuts. I tell him to have fun with his girlfriends. I leave.

2 hours later, I am fine. Crisis averted. I am on my second glass of wine and he strolls through door. Buzzed. Shouldn't have been driving in my opinion. However. After telling him about the emergency he proceeded to explain that he told me a "bubbameiser" ( white lie in yiddish) wo he could go shopping for my Christmas present.

The thing is - he came home with things from the store so he actually did that. We discussed the bar and the bottom line is I told him he doesn't need my permission to go and I know he didn't tell me because he needed some alone time - time without me and that's OK. He just needs to tell me that. I didn't have a problem with it last week so why now? Minor setback. But it's all resolved now. So here are my 5.

1. I am thankful that we are at least trying to iron out some of the question marks. I hate the duplicity and he's causing it. I can't blindly trust. He knows that. So we worked it out.
2. I am thankful that he was excited about what he got me. I don't even care what it is. He's happy with it and that's what's most important. And he can't wait for Christmas to give it to me. I think that's kind of cute actually.
3. I am thankful that our music is back. Better than ever actually. We did about 10 songs in the house yesterday. It went pretty good for a first REAL rehearsal. So good that when Papa of largesse ( Big Daddy) called he went up to the restaurant and they did some duets last night. He booked 2 gigs a month there and the two of them have a potential private party coming. AND Big Daddy's wife sings and play violin so the four of us may be getting work since we started doing Mamma's and the Pappas tunes.
4. I am thankful that Thanksgiving this year will be with my whole family. Including Jon. Usually he's working on the holidays so I am taking full advantage this yest. Now honestly he's using it as a hiding place, but who cares. He needs to come to something with my family too. So this is good. My new nephew will be there. It will be fun.
5. I am thankful that our furniture is on order, the new sounds system is on it's way. I may have a grownup home yet. I can't wait!!!!

I am thankful every day. I had five things for Friday and Saturday but life got in the way. So delays - yes. But Here I am. With my list. Better than ever.

We have football plans with my best friend and her hubby so - I am off to make Buffalo wings from scratch...