You know, I've never thought of myself as clueless, but maybe I am.
Here's the thing.
I was alerted to a situation involving one of my friends last night. It was a moment for me that really brought some clarity to my existence.
It occurred to me, in that moment, that I have not been the best friend that I could be of late.
Not that I am doing badly. I don't think we've crossed into that realm yet. But I could use some improvement. Hey at least I am not "openly hostile". Ha ha ha.
So I took some actions and apologized. I am feeling badly because I love this friend very much and we've been through so much together.
Then it occurred to me that, outside my immediate circle, I may have been less than available of late. Being honest with myself, my life has become comprised of work, teaching, my best friend and sleep. The filler time includes some form of food, exercize and socializing/errands/appts. There is very little time for anything spontaneous.
And this is in the summer. Fall just started. My availability is going to decrease further as the performing groups I belong to start rehearsal.
For those of you who need me and I am not being good about noticing the signs, please email/call/Instant message me. I am going to try hard to pay better attention to those that I love, but in case I miss it, please clue the clueless blond in! I will drop what I am doing, make time, whatever and you all know that!
So, in short, I am going to try and be better.
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It's tough to manage your own stuff and keep up with others sometimes. I get that. Been there, done that, time and time again.
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