Worst case scenarios and other disclaimers

I work in profession that regularly has to rely on outside companies to do work for us. That requires my company to regularly have to CYA.

In laymans terms "Cover Your Ass".

So, it came as no surprise to me that CYA applies to ALL professions in some form or another.

In the medical field - they call it "Worst Case Scenario".

I think I like that term better - but not when it applies to someone I love.

So - the-worst-case-scenario that we got from the Endoscopy appt yesterday was:

"You may lose your voice and your ability to speak and sing. We can do a trachyotmoy and give you a speaking box to communicate with".

I freaked out. I went to bed.

Quite literally - I got up and went to bed. I had timed out.

Earlier in the day, when leaving to GO to this appt, I was already half brain dead and he kissed me on top of the head and told me to stop worrying.

How the hell am I supposed to do that??? HELLO. HAve we JUST met????

Then that disclaimer comes in on the heels of "it hasn't moved or spread. Everything looks exactly the same"

Listen, I don't want to hold the outcome of this over anyone's head. This is no one's fault. Certainly not the doctors who are so willing to help a person who cannot pay for his treatments.

I just didn't like that answer.

We started a file and he made copies of everything and is working through his sister on a second opinion through Sloan Kettering. We are blessed that she worked there for so long prior to her career change.

The Radiation will start next week as planned since more than likely that has to happen anyway.

I am praying that there is a surgical option rather than a chemo option at this point as well.

So there is the latest. I can't tell you how much I appreciate everyone's support and love. It means the world to me.