I am starting to hate my day gig.
I used to love it. A lot. Enough to keep me in it for 15 years.
Now the past 12 months have been an experiment in hell.
So I sat down to examine WHY.
It's my boss.
He's a wonderful, caring and compassionate person. He really is.
That's what pisses me off to be honest. If he was a cold-hearted bastard I would dhave a much easier time with the work behaviours my team has to deal with.
It certainly isn't personal. But he does believe that my entire team of 6 of the best and brightest and most talented in the entire company, are just stupid. It's become more and more obvious the longer he's responsible for us. He truly believes that we have no ability to think or know what the next step is, though we've proven it for YEARS. YEARS longer than he has been back to work after retiring.
We'll see what the outcome is, but it's distracted me so much this week that I am not focusing on the events at hand. So I am taking half a day today and all of tomorrow off so I can rest and be functional before sunday.
On the topic of Sunday. I'm a little disappointed, my brother and his wife have decided to go to my new nieces christening rather than my first recital. I'm a little upset about it because he's my actual brother and this is not something that I get to do all that often and it is the first and may well never happen again. That it was on the calendar for over three months is the least of it. His email said that they intended to come to my recital until they got the baby's invitation. I have to be honest here, that's as bad as waiting for somethin better to come along. And that hurt even though logically I realize the baby won't get another christening and I have the possibility of another recital in my lifetime. But that means that my mom and step mom will be there and all my siblings will be with the baby. That hurts a lot.
On the flip side I have so many great people traveling for me though - and that makes me seriously happy! I can't wait to see them!!!! So though I had to vent a little bit about my brother's choices, I do have people coming that love me and I don't get to see very often. So this does have some nice balance to it!!!!
1 comment:
It does have some balance to it, and not everyone would be able to find that. I'm so glad you're one of the people who can.
I'm so sorry about your brother and the miserable situation at work. I know you'll find a way of handling it and I don't really have any advice. But I'm sorry you have to deal with it, and am glad you're taking time to focus on Sunday.
I can't wait to hear all about your recital and very much wish I could sneak in myself so that I could hear you. I hope it goes amazingly well for you!
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