Burn Out

I just determined a new symptom of burn out for me.

This is really interesting.

When I am suffering from burnout and/ or work stress - I compulsively eat. I mean volume times ten.

Put me back into emotional stress regarding family or relationships? I lose weight from lack of appetite.

Isn't that bizarre? If I had noticed this before, I would be a LOT thinner now. I can't believe it took me this long to notice.

I am umder extreme - and I mean extreme - pressure right now. I have been back from my vacation for exactly 3 days. and in those three days I have worked about 15 hours per day. Without a break until today. I left the home office for the first time in three days at 6:30 PM. I was out for one hour and half. I came home and ate dinner - a lot incidentally - while I was working. And as I write this, I am still working.

This won't last for long as the executive esc has turned logical people into bumbling silly people. We can't grant each other the common courtesy of being able to speak on a conf call. Everyone is so eager to provide a solution that they ask questions repeatedly and don't wait for the answers, hence the repetition. Our PM is wonderful but this has spiraled out of control. I get screamed at on average 1 time per day by my director and multiple times per day from someone else's manager.

I finally burst into tears. Fortunately for me - in the privacy of my own home.

I know there is a lot of burnout here, on my part. I am combatting it as best I can, but I Can't NOT work at this juncture. There is entirely too much to do and not enough hands to do it.

I never thought I would say this, but the emotional stress of my relationship with my best friend is preferable.

At least it enables me to lose weight.