And now comes the anger

I got some really excellent advice today.

It does go against the grain though, and it plays into my mindset of "no game playing".

But I think it's the best choice and I was leaning that way in the first place.

Just walk away. No malice aforethought, no warning.

Just walk away.

If he calls, do not pick up and do not return the call.

If we end up at the same place, politely excuse myself and exit.

He thinks he's the man who can learn from his mistakes. He's said that. In fact what he does IS learn but he transfers the blame to others.

So, if he's going to learn from his mistakes, he is going to have to learn to respect me. And he either will or he won't. But it can't start with my choosing to be around. We've done this, it's proven to not work. So why do it again?

The definition of insanity is to repeat the same behaviours and expect different results.

The fact that I moved through much of the pain already in 5 days really makes me wonder. I'm angry and bit sarcastic and still prone to calling the other woman a whore ( thanks again Post-doc - it really is liberating). The major part seems to be over.

I think the reason it's more rational for me right now is because I am no longer in the peaks and valleys. I am in the valley with the middle as the peak. It's a smaller curve. Less stressful.

Oh I know you are all laughing at the rational comment. Go ahead.... laugh all you want. If it were any of you, I would probably have some eye rolling and a giggle or two. At the least.

But given the magnitude of what's happened here, I think that this thinking is more to the line of rational.

Except for the "whore" part.

That just makes me feel better.

Yeah I am a spiteful bitch on occasion - and I deserve to be.